"Dear____,
There are so many things I want to say to you, and for a moment there I thought I'd have the rest of my life to do that. I don't think you'll listen to me now, and I don't blame you. After what I've done I wouldn't listen to me either. It's amazing really, the way we humans behave. The capacity we have to bring disaster to our lives, the way I brought disaster to ours.
It's even more bewildering that when you think you or any of us are really searching for is someone to stand beside, someone to look at and say "yes, you make the difference", "you bring me peace".
I think some people have a gene for love -- they know what it is, giving it, receiving it and return just comes natually to them. It seems I don't have that primer zone, because being loved by you was I see now all I have wanted, and for some reason I took it, and I broke it. But I believe that love is strong, that love endures, and if it does, then so does hope.
___________"
